I have spent the last six weeks trying to adjust to the cpap machine. The last two weeks I started experiencing unusual and serious problems. Every night about an hour after placing the mask on I would experience a coughing event so bad that I would end up in the bathroom throwing up. So, after about 10 nights of this, I emailed the doctor. He asked me to come in the very next day.
He listened to all my concerns, answered all my questions and then we discussed what was happening to my lungs. He made several adjustments to the machine, helped me refit my mask, set some sleep goals and tried fitting a different mask. He said that since I have an appointment in two weeks, he will make some further adjustments at that point.
The doctor said that with the sensitive nature of my lungs, he will be making adjustments each season as the humidity changes, temperature changes and as my decline continues. So, I guess that means I will be seeing him about every 2-3 months to make new adjustments to keep me breathing and my heart beating. That is more money honey.
My husband has been happy to announce each morning for the last three nights that I have not had any coughing events. I even had the mask on for almost 7 hours last night.
I sometimes wonder if all this is worth it. Somedays I am scared, especially when I cough a lot. Sometimes I wonder if I should file for disability. Then I remember that God has not called me home yet. He is asking for me to be my best as long as possible. If I do not have enough money for the medical expenses, He will provide. He always has.
I constantly remind myself that I am loved by God and I am precious, even if my body doesn’t always follow my rules.