What a question! How will your family react as each doctor visit brings about further bad news and death knocking at your door?
Honestly, I don’t know. I can only share with you my immediate family reactions.
My brothers who live all over the US – one commiserates, the other two I don’t really know. I want to think that they care, but they have their own problems.
My sisters – One completely understands and may even be suffering from some of what I have. The other expresses concern and sympathy.
My children – Here are two total opposites. My daughter leaks out a few tears and is trying to understand what is happening. My son, well, he has his own thing going on. I believe that he understands that I am ill and tries to help where he can. Other than that, I am not sure how he really feels because he does not tell me.
My husband – It depends on the day. Some days he can be very protective of me. Others he reacts that nothing has happened and I am not ill. Then there are those days when he comes along side of me and supports me. It really depends upon his mental status.
I would like to think that everyone understands and supports me. The reality is that I am not in their shoes and I do not have telepathy to know their thoughts. I understand that most people don’t really know how to react when I dish out more bad news. I am okay with that.
The one thing I am sure of is that God knows what is happening, how I am feeling, and will make sure that my physical and emotional support is met at all times.