Okay, I have been thinking about this past year. It has been an interesting one to say the least…
In the last twelve months…
I have had a forever cold which wasn’t a cold.
I have survived several sets of unknown fevers only to find out the fevers were scar tissue expanding in my lungs.
I was told I might have 5 years to live.
I finished another year of school.
I have been told I have Lupus.
I have been told I have Sjogren’s Syndrome.
I had my fingers and lips turn blue every day for over a month.
I prepared for my death and what I would be leaving behind.
I was denied an advancement in my job.
I have been told I can’t leave my job.
Trying on clothes is exhausting, so I can no longer shop in the malls.
Walking more than 5 blocks seems impossible.
I had to beg my husband to cash in his retirement to ease my comfort driving.
But, through all this….I have had never ending prayers from church friends, leadership, work friends and family. I am sure even a few strangers have prayed for me.
I have believed that God has a plan for me. I have seen provisions when I thought I was at the end of my rope. Groceries have been provided when the refrigerator was empty. Friends have taken me out when I was at my lowest emotionally. Miracles surprise me each and every day. Even if it is just the sound of bird song at 5:30 am while I am walking Daisy.
There are some hurdles still. In fact, I don’t expect the list of hurdles to get smaller. God likes me in prayer mode. So, having struggles keeps me on my knees.
Upcoming hurdles that I am struggling with prayer wise-
Court date for disability for my husband. I know what I want. I just don’t know what God wants for our family. I have to believe God will continue to provide for our family.
I need to expand my exercise routine while avoiding sun exposure (due to medication). Have you seen where I live? I live in Florida!!! Sunshine state!! Looks like the 6:30 am walks will be in order for this summer. I have to believe that God will give me the strength to do this.
College ends Christmas eve. What a nice Christmas present! A Bachelor’s degree! But, then what? Should I look for a different job? Should I stay? Does this all depend upon what happens with my husband? What doors will God open up for me with this degree? I have to believe that God has something incredible for me this upcoming year after I finish school.
My sister is ill. I want to go spend time with her. Yet, due to my medication, travelling is another hurdle. I have to believe I will get to a place in my treatment plan that I can go see her with the least amount of complications. Only God can make that happen at this point.
Ultimately…I have to Believe God will see me through Everything.